November 25, 2006

• it's a cold day today in the valley; cold enough to convince me that
  fall has finally begun.  the passage of thanksgiving was also a
  clue, but being able to stay in bed with a book until afternoon without
  my feet getting sweaty, that's the sinker.  it's after 12:30pm and
  it's still pretty cold.  hello, fall.

  it wasn't so gloomy earlier in the day.  it was one of those days
  so full of potential that just trying to ignore the possibilities
  dredged up the oldest memories of guilt my procrastinator's existence
  had prudently stored away, just for such a moment.  but the
  brightness of the sun, like the guilt it had conjured, faded to nothing
  but a troublesome afterthought.  and here i am, still sitting at
  home, still bed-coifed, still sporting t-shirt and boxers, still
  contemplating what to eat for breakfast at lunchtime.  and,
  despite the cup of coffee that had temporarily fortified this attempt
  at extended consciousness, it's cold enough to make me consider
  burrowing back into the covers.

  i need a haircut.  there's shopping that needs doing, and then
  there's shopping that wants doing, and lastly there's shopping that
  probably shouldn't be done, but still might be anyway.  every
  bright dream that came to light and then died in the gloom today has
  had something to do either with spending money or else exposing myself
  to to the world by stepping back out into it.  and both seem such
  shallow, selfish categories.  so, sitting at home and reading
  books doesn't seem so irresponsible or wasteful.  i should
  probably eat something.

  you should probably eat something too, if you're having a day like
  mine.  or maybe eating something is absolutely the last thing you
  should do right now.  maybe, just as i am tempted even now to do,
  what you should do is open the windows to the cold breeze, climb back
  under the covers, and read the next book until you fall asleep. 
  the afternoon has hardly begun, afterall; you'll wake up in time to
  make breakfast of dinner and maybe even catch some nightlife, if your
  friends made plans while you slept.  clean up the apartment
  later.  do the shopping later.  how about a nice read-into-a
  nap?

  • 3:49 pm
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